The following is the first half of a short story i've been working on for the past couple of weeks (with intermittent breaks).
The story is simply named Youth and this is the first chapter titled Eleven. I have made some revisions to it since then but i am not done revising it. I will post the revised editions later. The story contains what could be considered objectionable content but i think its valid under artistic license.
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His fur was supple and sweet you could stare at it for hours or so you hoped although you could never gaze at him for this long. His snout was perfectly shaped and his tongue which he poked at you once was adequately beautiful. You once gazed into his eyes while watching him play and he could only stare back although he made fun of you after. He lived another life and fraternised with the furless folk and his parents were well known amongst your compatriots. You didn’t think you could get close to him and he was older, 3 years your senior and more developed. Sabletongue was his name and you felt that the name distanced or represented so the distinction between you and him being of course named after an exotic furgiver which inhabited the forests of his native region your own family was born more southerly to the region you grew up in. His sister was a year older and remarkably distinct in a cruel sort of way but you liked that, you could never hope to be treated with kindness. Your parents loved you and poured all their energy into you as they had no other children but you still felt apart although it was common among your people. Your attention once again turned to his sister and how she belittled you mockingly as if she had something against you, her own parents having taken themselves above the people of the same shape. You didn’t know how they personally felt about this matter but she was very spoilt as was he and so you felt them unkind and quick to grab themselves and contort themselves into something which set them above and quick to disdain those below. You had little sources of gossip as you had no compatriots to call equal but you had still heard about how he had romanced a young girl of a different school who his parents had introduced him to. You did not know why the people up top insisted on keeping each kith and kin in separate schools so you had never seen a furless folk or one of her own shape except in passing. You would do well to meet one of them yet you could never muster the words. Your principal was also one of the furless yet you had never spoken to him personally as you were well behaved.
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Your parents weren’t sure about your tentative being yet you felt so whole. When your mother first held you in her arms after you had come home crying she questioned you and when you had done it some more she called you defective. Yet you felt complete and totally personable. You cried until you were off your current age and then you stopped. You felt like the self pity you had generated previously was behind you. You never spoke to others much anymore and that felt like it stopped the crying although you could never explain why. While you cried you thought you were never to feel happiness and yet after you had toughened up the tears you felt like your harder exterior kept you in a certain shape which begetted happiness at least in form. Your parents felt you were deeply troubled but as you were no longer crying they felt like there was not much to worry about.
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Today was beautiful with its glittering play of the sun on water, a lake which you had often visited and had returned to as it was only a short walk from your school. Sabletongue was there: alone as he often was although today you had not followed him. You felt like the peculiar beauty of the lake matched his own refinement he of course felt like the most beautiful member of the male species to you, It was only moments later when you were startled by a “Hello, you look like you need someone to talk too” from his own voice which you noted already sounded deeper like your father said your own voice would sound. You turned around to notice the speaker was a girl who introduced herself as “Silverthyme, friend of Sabletongue and hopefully you”. You exchanged pleasantries and she then began to cry saying she should not have spoken to you when her friend moved in to comfort her. He looked into your eyes and somehow judged you innocent “She’s a bit temperamental” but he noted you should not be speaking to her. She quickly rose to your defence “He’s just a bit awkward is all” and in that moment had you not assumed your required shape you would have begun to cry once again. You were perfectly good you felt but she was judging you with the kind of harsh temper you felt unreserved. You then steeled yourself again and told yourself you were used to this which was followed by a “Do you speak much?” from the girl. “My name is Steppingduck” you replied “And i don’t have anyone to speak too” was an elucidated follow up.
“Well my parents are going to be in attendance of a dinner party so they have invited her kids to dear Sabletongue’s parent’s house”, she spoke. “You can come of course but i would have never invited you personally” your beautiful affectionee replied. He stood on his toes making sure you knew he was a good deal taller than you and then brushed the locks of your furry hair. Silvermyrtle then kissed his ear and nudged at yours. You stared at their beautiful fur for a moment before asking them where the house was exactly. They told you they would pick you up on Friday (the next day). You were grateful; it seemed to save a lot of fuss that way.
“Well my parents are going to be in attendance of a dinner party so they have invited her kids to dear Sabletongue’s parent’s house”, she spoke. “You can come of course but i would have never invited you personally” your beautiful affectionee replied. He stood on his toes making sure you knew he was a good deal taller than you and then brushed the locks of your furry hair. Silvermyrtle then kissed his ear and nudged at yours. You stared at their beautiful fur for a moment before asking them where the house was exactly. They told you they would pick you up on Friday (the next day). You were grateful; it seemed to save a lot of fuss that way.
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You rummaged through your drawers for a gift which you felt necessary recompose for your dinner party when you found a ring which had presumably been hiding in your drawer from an earlier time when your parents had guests in your room. It felt heavy to touch relative to its size and was only silver although it never occurred to you rings could be any other way or even that it was rather valuable even with its diminished architecture. You would not tell your parents about this.
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It was another beautiful day although you never saw the waters of the lake as you were too busy thinking about your trip to Sabletongue’s house. It was at school's end when you were picked up by your newfound speakees and you made sure to be on good terms in some sort of pleasant way by exchangement of such and such. Possibly Silverthyme could have cried but held back her tears but you did not sense any sense of betrayed emotion on her face. She smiled very lightly which you took to be sincere as you usually did. She was lovely of course in a peculiar sort of way and you noted her shapely ears were prickly in feeling as you watched beside her as you walked. You could imagine her nicer than the other female you had thought about in these past few weeks (Sabletongue’s sister) but you were not sure how that made you feel. Different you supposed.
When you arrived at his house you noted it was one of the more beautiful ones which you had seen before although all buildings were at least nicely furnished with gardens in this part of the world. Inside was decidedly ornate in its plain style which you concluded was from the good sense of the architect (and the door you entered from was very large). “Hello son and who is this?” you heard a lighter voice speak although you were almost certain it was a man. “A friend” (you were an invitee you felt). “We thought he would like to come with us” you heard Silverthyme speak. “He better behave” the voice became sterner. “He is of excellent behaviour, very noble” Sabletongue offered in your defence. You turned ahead to two older and taller girls standing next to an adult man, one of which you could tell was Sabletongue’s sister. Her presumed friend was however beautiful in a way she was not and was also taller and of better standing gait and shared in you with soft blue eyes. “Hello” you said addressing the girl “My name is Steppingduck” and then you gave a bright smile. “You do not need to know my name” his father replied and you felt unsure at why he had responded. The girl looked at you with disappointment before whisking away without her friend. “You are very small for your age” his father continued which you responded to with “I’m eleven”. “I suppose you are a bit bigger then but i thought you were older” was his only response. “You’re that young?” Silverthyme replied “I suppose you can play with my younger brother then he is a bit closer to yours in age” was Sabletongue’s offer. You turned around to note the others you had met were leaving before you were guided to another room by your speakees.
You found the room to be quite brightly coloured suitable for someone who wasn’t you. Inside was the boy and two girls, the older of which was showing Sabletongue’s brother how to draw. You noted her technique was excellent and so asked her about how she became so good. “I do not know, only that it is probably a mixture of talent and some degree of effort as my mother used to say” she replied. “My name is Rabbitfoot, what can I elucidate is yours?”, you replied with “Just Steppingduck”. She was very good to talk too “I do hope you liked my dear Lynxhop, she is gifted in the art of drawing like me but is more mysterious even her technique seems to say that” “It’s about the usage of perspective, a different one of that can contribute to an artist's personal stamp” “My mother taught me everything i know and i do make sure to make everything i do good although i am primarily a painter working on a canvas”. When you and she were done you kissed; not on the cheek of course but afterwards the spark was just enough you forgot you had never talked to the other two children in the room.
When you arrived at his house you noted it was one of the more beautiful ones which you had seen before although all buildings were at least nicely furnished with gardens in this part of the world. Inside was decidedly ornate in its plain style which you concluded was from the good sense of the architect (and the door you entered from was very large). “Hello son and who is this?” you heard a lighter voice speak although you were almost certain it was a man. “A friend” (you were an invitee you felt). “We thought he would like to come with us” you heard Silverthyme speak. “He better behave” the voice became sterner. “He is of excellent behaviour, very noble” Sabletongue offered in your defence. You turned ahead to two older and taller girls standing next to an adult man, one of which you could tell was Sabletongue’s sister. Her presumed friend was however beautiful in a way she was not and was also taller and of better standing gait and shared in you with soft blue eyes. “Hello” you said addressing the girl “My name is Steppingduck” and then you gave a bright smile. “You do not need to know my name” his father replied and you felt unsure at why he had responded. The girl looked at you with disappointment before whisking away without her friend. “You are very small for your age” his father continued which you responded to with “I’m eleven”. “I suppose you are a bit bigger then but i thought you were older” was his only response. “You’re that young?” Silverthyme replied “I suppose you can play with my younger brother then he is a bit closer to yours in age” was Sabletongue’s offer. You turned around to note the others you had met were leaving before you were guided to another room by your speakees.
You found the room to be quite brightly coloured suitable for someone who wasn’t you. Inside was the boy and two girls, the older of which was showing Sabletongue’s brother how to draw. You noted her technique was excellent and so asked her about how she became so good. “I do not know, only that it is probably a mixture of talent and some degree of effort as my mother used to say” she replied. “My name is Rabbitfoot, what can I elucidate is yours?”, you replied with “Just Steppingduck”. She was very good to talk too “I do hope you liked my dear Lynxhop, she is gifted in the art of drawing like me but is more mysterious even her technique seems to say that” “It’s about the usage of perspective, a different one of that can contribute to an artist's personal stamp” “My mother taught me everything i know and i do make sure to make everything i do good although i am primarily a painter working on a canvas”. When you and she were done you kissed; not on the cheek of course but afterwards the spark was just enough you forgot you had never talked to the other two children in the room.
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Dinner was some soup followed by four! other delicate courses alarmingly (you didn’t know richer people had that) although you did note that there were no deserts only another course of fresh fruit at the end. Supper was delicious although you did not talk a single word during it while others who took a bit longer to finish were eager to talk in between mostly things about business. When dinner (and fruits!) was done you and the other kids were ushered of into separate rooms by what you knew to be the butler. You spent your time playing with Sabletongue and your new speakee into the night before you were ushered of into bed.
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You awoke to morning light streaming down from the left side of your window as was typical in summer. Today was the solstice which is something your parents always celebrated and you wondered why you were so quick to miss them. Then you remembered you had not told them you would be away which might have disappointed them.
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“I can not explain how but lunch was delicious as was breakfast” you said to Rabbitfoot. She replied “The sear on some of the salmon imparts it with smoky flavour which compliments the raw one which goes well with the bitterroot and lemonfruit”. “You do note its flavours perhaps?” “I do”. “You are very beautiful, you know that?” she offered. “I’ve never been called beautiful or anything much before”, you replied. She then went back to drawing sketching a building which you found to be breathed in with a life of its own not that buildings (or drawings) could have that. She was of the more flatterfaced furred folk, a related kin you felt perhaps. Her own eyes were yellow like lamps in the night or when it was just a bit too dark (or in a cave). And her tail was beautiful and bushy; you felt like you couldn’t touch it.
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She began to show you how to sketch and you to some degree picked it up although it felt like stumbling over seemliness although you were “as quick as her ''. You marveled at her skill and wondered what her paintings were like and whether she would “really like what you would eventually produce”. Her friend Lynxhop also offered you some advice when she came in to check on her and you praised her form as excellent like “art”. She didn’t blush at that but you felt like she was warming up to you. The day after you finally produced something which with some degree of her help she deemed competent (more help on her part then anything else of course but she liked the way you portrayed Lynxhop’s cheekbones). It was for this that she gave you a light kiss; on the lips this time which felt distinctly in your mind of something you did not know.
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When it was in the later halves of the next day you found the time to present your gift to Sabletongue. He was accepting of your offer but upon closer examination he found something wrong. “This is a silver ring right?” he offered “I do not know” “Well if it is you shouldn’t have given it to me” “Why?” “If you had it you would know why” “I had never seen it before until i had found it in my bedroom drawer” you replied. He paused for a moment and said you are basically a thief. In that moment you took the impetus to kiss him (as your mother had told you she did to your father sometimes to shut him up). You could feel him smile as he closed his eyes at the push of your lips on his tongue but he then came to his senses and backed away. “What do you think you are doing?” he contorted and twisted. “Sabletongue, I did nothing wrong” “It’s just don’t let anyone know about this” he replied; you were not sure why.
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School tomorrow was a headache as your parents interrogated you on where you had been even getting some of the local police (of which your dad was a member) in on it. They told you they were happy you were making friends which Sabletongue affirmed the actual relationship was so you supposed you should start mentally referring to him as such. You did not tell your parents of your relationship with Rabbitfoot but did tell her you were meeting a different person and older girl at the end of the week. They also expressed regret at you not being here for the solstice so they already set you a “you have to be here for it next year”.
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On a day of the same week blanketed by moaning (dripping) clouds which hung like mist in the morning you told him about how Rabbitfoot kissed you by the lake to which he replied “It is common for the people my grandparents came from to not take one partner” “But not so appropriate in these lands”. You felt like rain would surely come soon so on your advice you headed back to the covered areas of the school grounds (good advice). You also confessed you were practicing drawing and hoped to draw him when you were fully done.
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When you were done with school on Friday you headed back to Sabletongue’s house to find Rabbitfoot inviting you to her own place as she had told you she would. The trip took you past your parent’s place which she noted was quite near to where she lived. When you were inside she began instructing you on drawing technique as she promised and she would do that through the rest of the weekend (all three days) and also through much of the four days of the week you spent time practicing how to draw. Over the days your skill got better and better and you soon delivered your promise one day on a holiday celebrated by the furless folk. He complimented you on your skill and rendering of his features and that night you asked to kiss him again but he said it would be too impudent.